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| Random babbling..... |
| 05.29.04 (2:34 pm) [edit] |
Yesterday I went to a drive through movie with Dare, it was great especially since I had never been to one before. We saw Shrek, which I found hilarious; my favorite part was seeing the Joan Rivers wanna be. I thought it was brilliant and the animation was superb! Pretty soon all them stars will be replaced with animated characters.
Everybody and their cousin went to MD this weekend! I mean there are just a few of us left here; I would have gone except I plan to be there on Thursday, so I didn’t see the point. Omolayo is on a field trip with church and I am sitting here waiting for Bode and his brother in-law to arrive, they are visiting me this weekend. I slept almost half the day, I am not sure why I am so exhausted…. perhaps staying up till 3am had something to do with it.
Shola’s wedding is 7 days away! I am so excited you would think I was the bride!
So Wande her friend Busola, Molayo and I will be driving to PA together. Omolayo is the little bride! She is so excited; she has been practicing how to walk and insists there should be a little boy walking beside her like on the wedding Channel! **Eye Rolling**]
I could not believe how much catching up I needed to do for my college algebra, thank God for Dare! The boy is a genius and he is tutoring me twice a week. I am hell bent on getting an A in that course.
Victoria’s wedding is around the corner as well, I drove down to the bridal shop to get fitted for my gown, it was lovely! I can’t believe I am a size 12! I know the bridal dress run small but damn! It was not encouraging at all. Loosing 8lbs these last few weeks has been a great achievement for me; I am trying to get down to 130lbs, I am currently 143 so 13 more to go and BAM! I hope my goodies don’t disappear in the process!
I am officially bald yall! My hair is all of an inch long, I cut it like three weeks ago. It was one of those spur of the moment things, I just grabbed my clippers and went nuts! Now I do not know what to do with my hair. Any suggestions ( texturizer and scurl is out of the question) any others?
Okay I am in dire need of a digital camera. Moji was my photographer but now that we are 5 hours apart, how do I take pictures? No I can't buy one, don’t have no money but if anyone is feeling generous…hit me up!
I will be back!
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| Dear Pain..... |
| 05.23.04 (7:51 pm) [edit] |
Dear pain…I have gotten to know you
I have learnt to love you
You’ve remained a constant friend
You’ve thought me to accept you
I have learnt to embrace you
You’ve remained a constant friend
I wonder how I came about you
Oh my dearest pain, I can’t seem to live without you
You have been a loyal friend.
You have stayed with me from the very beginning
You vowed that you would never leave me
You have been a loyal friend.
You have been o’ so so faithful
I wonder if only death will do us part
You have been my only friend
What have I done to deserve you?
What will I have if you desert me?
You have been my only friend
I wonder if Joy will come in your stead
I wonder if it will be as faithful as you’ve been
Bola Odegbami
**I wrote this last week when I was at my breaking point**
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| Blue Prints... |
| 05.23.04 (4:47 am) [edit] |
Hello it’s me again! I want to start by giving thanks to the MOST HIGH! God has been faithful to me and I feel the need to share.
I moved out of Maryland, as you are all aware, in hope of getting a fresh start, uncertain of what the future holds.
Since I got here its been one devastating thing or another; first there was news of a person dear to my heart being violated at a tender age! Then there was my accident and crashing one of my best friends' car! Then there was the back-to-back hospital visits from crises to thyroid to pneumonia! Then there was Remi's niece dying before she got a shot at life! Then there was Moji being hospitalized! The drama continued....
About a week ago I started wondering if this was a big mistake, if perhaps I should have waited in Maryland, if I should take my sister up on her offer to come to Detroit. I was at my breaking point without a doubt.
Almost immediately I moved here, Remi's mum found me a job as a sitter for a 92-year-old woman. I jumped at the offer and I kept reminding myself that it was temporary. I was bent on getting a job with Time Warner and I viewed my current job as a stepping-stone to the greater plans God had in store for me. I gave my resume to the lady I worked for because her husband is a big shot in Corporate America in hope of securing a position at one of their companies. After about a week, she came back and told me that they needed a candidate with a bachelors degree, she went on to say that if I am interested she would like to avail me the opportunity to finish school. I looked at her with confusion and asked her to explain what she meant. She told me that she would pay my tuition, campus accommodation; buy my books and whatever supplies I needed to complete my education. I jumped on her and did not let go until she begged me to free her from my hold. I thanked her with tears running down my face...and for the first time in years they were tears of joy. I called Remi because I needed a witness to this miracle and she confirmed it to Remi as well, Remi and I agreed that this was the kind of shit you watched on Oprah or Maury. I shared the news with Remi's mum and I thanked her because she also played a part in creating an opportunity for me to find this favor.
This Lady has since paid my summer tuition and purchased a brand new laptop for me to be able to continue my education without paying a single cent. Mind you my school charges $221 per credit and I am taking 12 credits this summer alone! You do the math, in addition, I am the proud owner of a Toshiba Satellite Laptop another $1300 and we are just getting started!
Remember how I fussed about missing my laptop from work? Now here is a laptop that was given to me and is mine to keep!
I sit and I think about how God has an incredible sense of humor, how all of my misfortunes were playing a part in my fortune, well the curtains have been raised and I am the leading lady!
1st off...If that bastard Tolu had never called my job, I would never have quit and I would never have moved out of Maryland.
2ndly...If I had secured that dream job with Time Warner and I would have left the sitter job in a heartbeat and depended on tuition reimbursement to see me through school which would have delayed my progress for another God knows how long.
All these things were blue prints of a divine design God had in plan for me. Things have a funny way of working out, I have always been commended for being a epitome of the 'strong black woman' but I am far from it, I am frail, uncertain and insecure like most people, I just do a greater job of masking it. I thank God for this miracle and I thank God because I know he has more in store for me. Now, # 2 on the list...send me that Prince Charming that will love me unconditionally and sweep me off my feet ***chuckles***.
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| Can you handle the truth? |
| 05.23.04 (4:40 am) [edit] |
We often ask in our dealings for honesty and trust, we feel that we can handle things better if we know the truth but can we really handle the truth? With truth comes a lot of pain and anger that we do not consider. I guess it depends on what kind of truth.
Hypothetically, A man/woman you love engages in a one-night stand. Do you really want to know?
Your parents adopted you when you were a child. Do you want to know?
Your friend bought you that body spray last Christmas because you have body odor. Do you want to know?
The efo you slaved on for the past 4 hours taste like shit. Do you want to know?
You are really not that fabulous in bed? Can you handle the truth?
I for one have come to find there are some details I'd rather be spared because I can't handle some truth. I have a friend that tells me everything and its all gravy for the most part but lately I just prefer he keeps some things to himself. What standard should he measure my truths by? How does he determine what I can handle and what would freak me out?
Some may say they don’t want to know some things but then once they find out, they feel betrayed and hurt.
I am curious to know what others think.
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| He sent me flowers |
| 05.20.04 (8:04 pm) [edit] |
Please pay attention to the words. Love yourself more. Please pass this on to all, especially our young sistahs.
HE SENT ME FLOWERS................
December '02
We had our first argument last night, and he said some cruel things
that really hurt me. I know he is sorry and didn't mean the things he
said, because he sent me flowers today. I got flowers today. It wasn't
our anniversary or any other special day.
February '03
Last night he threw me into a wall and started to choke me. It seemed
like a nightmare, I couldn't believe it was real. I woke up this
morning sore and bruised all over. I know he must be sorry because he
sent me flowers today. I got flowers today, and it wasn't mother's day
or any other special day.
April '03
Last night he beat me up again it was much worse than all the other
times. If I leave him what will I do? How will I take care for my
kid? What about money? I'm afraid of him and scared to leave. But I
know he must be sorry because he sent me flowers today.
June '03
I got flowers today. Today was a very special day, and it was the day of my funeral. Last night, he finally killed me. He beat me to death.
If only I had gathered enough courage to leave him I would not havegotten flowers today.......
If you are against domestic abuse, please pass this along to everybody, not just women.
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| Great weekend it was! |
| 05.18.04 (7:46 pm) [edit] |
Wow! I have missed blogging! I almost can’t remember how.
Good to be back!
Hmm where do I start? I have been busy trying to get my life back together. My dear friends came down to visit me, Moji, Bukky, Lolyta and Elisa; they drove down from MD. We had a blast! Imagine 5 women in the house for 3 days! We stayed in Friday night and watched Yoruba movies while we dogged men and pigged out…quite refreshing!
On Saturday we took forever getting ready for the mall, we shopped like we won the lotto and I didn’t get much because everything I tried was too small! Besides I was the broke one in the bunch! We sang outside like we were on American Idol and everyone stared and laughed at our stupidity. We pigged out on Ice cream it was hell of good!
We watched 13 going on 30, my pick (he he he) we had a blast! We were exhausted after the mall thing but I wanted to fully utilize our time together so I insisted we go to the club. We stopped at Dare’s house and Remi came by to greet everyone. We went back to my crib to get dressed for the club. We went to this ghetto ass club that charge a mere $3 for admission! It was a riot! We drank, danced and mingled till 2 pm.
On Sunday I insisted everyone go to church ( I know…. I am a hypocrite) yall know my ass needs Jesus! It was a lengthy but strong sermon. It was almost time to bid my dawgs goodbye, we decided to shop some more, it was fun trying on clothes in the dressing rooms and I indulged in a few goodies myself…hey I deserve it dargonit!
We went to Remi’s ex's house, he cooks a mean ogbono and he hosted my gals to a great feast before they headed back!
We bid our goodbyes; it was good to have my MD crew in the house. Here is a shout out to my gulz! Thanks for coming! I love yall to bits.
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