All right yall, I am moving...no not my home but my blog.

I have been trying to move all my shit over but it's been rough. Now Tblog decides to give me back all my archives!! Well..... to late!! Anywho-If you'd like to go down memory lane...read the archives. If you want to get to know my new home click the link below. Be sure to sign my guestbook and leave your comments. It is still a work in progress so bear with me. loads of love!

Y.T

Queen B

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Dear ma,

Have I ever told you I love you?

Well I should have

Do you realize how much you mean to me?

I’ll tell you

Does it seem like all your suffering was in vain?

It wasn’t

Do I make you sometimes feel like I don’t appreciate you?

Because I do

No matter what you do, how you act, what you say and who you are

I will always be glad that you are my mother. I love you unconditionally and I am grateful to the almighty that he chose you as the vessel to give me life.

We may not always see eye to eye but understand that I will forever be in your debt for the sacrifices you made for me.

I would not trade you for anything in the world and I would not change a damn thing about you.

Forgive me if I seem ungrateful at times, because I am not. I am grateful I have you in my life and I am proud that you are my mum.

If ever again you are in doubt of my love for you, read my words, keeping in mind that they are sincere and find comfort in them.

This New Year, I will work on our relationship, I will do my part and whenever I fall short, be sure to do yours.

Y.T.

Omobolanle

I had an absolutely fabulous weekend; It started out lazy, considering I spent the entire half of the day in bed. My phone was ringing of the ying yang and I was to lazy to pick it up but my trusted Princess O filled in as secretary and I heard her every few minutes or so saying “ my mum is sleeping...call back”. I finally got up to go grocery shopping because my girls were coming to visit, Moji, Lola and Tolu. I made them catfish and rice. They arrived at about 6pm, I was so excited, and I guess I do miss MD just a bit. I called Remi to join us on a night out. We had a blast! We went to Jillian’s with Remi, Dupe and Derenle on Saturday night and then on Sunday we went to church, then to the mall. I went to Benetton to visit my beloved jacket, still not on sale and winter is almost over! Moji and I fought as usual, and then made up just as quickly. I indulged in a cinnabon knowing my ass was starting to look like Anna Nicole’s before trim spa! I am getting humongous! I now wear a size 10! I don’t know where it came from but its gotta go! Okay after this one last cinnabon. Note to self: Loose 25lbs by summer 2005. I know I am not that big but considering the type of shit I like to wear…I’ll just look ridiculous! I refuse to come to terms with the fact that I can no longer shop in the juniors department!

We took a bunch of pictures and headed home for dinner! I made Jollof rice and curry chicken with the help of Lola. We chilled for a bit after dinner and then we decided to go see ‘meet the Fockers’ Remi and Dupe joined us. It was hilarious! We stayed up till 5:30 am gisting about everything! My ass is going to be tired as hell Monday morning! I decided to spend the morning with my girls, we went shopping again, well they went shopping my broke ass just watched. They headed back to MD at about 4 pm. I decided to spend the rest of the day at Remi’s. BTW my dawg Remi recently bought a crib! 3 bedroom, 2 ½ baths, 2-door garage single family home. That shit is like that! she laid it out! It is tastefully and sparingly furnished and looked like something out of cribs! Kudos to Remi, I am so proud of you sister girl! I gave her an abstract 36x40 painting I made and it hangs over her fireplace, I think it’s my best work yet. Moji made me promise to make her one too, and I shall.

I am glad my chicka were in town this weekend it started my new year on a good note and took my mind off all the shit that has been bothering me.

I wish you all a very fabulous new year and may God bless you as he continues to bless me.

This year I will;

Get closer to God

Eat better

Exercise

Take my drugs

Take better care of myself

Improve my relationship with my family

Improve my relationship with my daughter

Shop less

Clean more

Be true to myself

Get better grades

Lose Weight

Find a steady job

Buy a new car

Read more

Humble myself

Get a washing machine/dryer

Redecorate my living room

Paint more

Cook more

Get a tattoo

Take a vacation

..........so help me God.

Dear Lord,

I pray for:

Wisdom, To understand a man.

Love, To forgive him and;

Patience, For his BS.

Because, Lord, if I pray for Strength

I'll just beat him to death.

This is my solemn prayer each day. I wonder what else a man need or
want what are his desires? What does it for him? I can always see so
clearly when I am looking in but lately my judgment has been clouded I guess
because I am in love.

Why is it when you are in love you act like a complete ass?

Why do you compromise your conviction and negotiate your principles?

Why do you settle for well enough when it isn’t enough?

I ask myself these questions everyday and I cant since to make heads or
tails out of this situation. I know what I need to do but I am afraid
to do it because true love doesn’t come around often and I have never
felt one this true.

What if I don’t find it again?

Why won’t my will power will me some damn power?

Aren’t you supposed to fight for what you believe in? Persevere through
trials or something of the sort.

What if this is some ultimate test to measure my tolerance for BS?

Could it be that I am naïve in my thoughts?

Could my imagination be getting the better of me?

Why do I look so strong yet feel so weak?

I am not sure yet but .......I intend to find out!

 

Hey Strangers! I know I have been gone for like ....forever. I was not in a good place mentally, but I am back now because I realize how much good this did me way back when. I don’t know what is going on Tblog but I can’t seem to find my archives! Those were the days I felt creative and drama-full all in the same.

I am doing great! School is fabulous! Omolayo is splendid! Life couldn’t be better.

I guess you are all looking forward to the holidays? Well not I. Most of my friends are in Jand for the holidays, some are in Naija, others ...just out of town. So me and my girl Omolayo are going to have a Mummy and me day…just the two of us.

Those of you that are familiar with my credo will remember that this year, same a last; You are all getting forks and napkins I have stolen from the various restaurants I have been to through the course of the year. I can’t afford mailing, so feel free to drop by my crib for your fork or napkin, they will be gift wrapped in baby wipes to give off that so so fresh fragrance. On the 26^th I will sell the rest to this homeless guy down my street, he used to work for Enron and can get me top dollar for my silverware.

I will also be accepting gift this year, but please keep your dollar store treasures to yourself! I am thinking more in the lines of sweaters from the limited or express, suits from Bebe. There is this coat I have my eye on from benetton. I love me some BCBG girls shoes. I also need a new cell phone. My hairdresser sells gift cards so you can buy me one shampoo, wrap and curl or upgrade to touch-up for just $10 more. If you are even thinking about those e-cards, I will be sure to curse you upon receipt!

Okay now that we are clear…lets move on.

Exams were fabulous! I am sure I got all As (awaiting results). I got to hang out in MD with my girls exam weekend, we had a BLAST!!! Shout out to my MD dawgs, My girl Sweet ‘n’Mo, Bukky, Lola, Sola and  Dee Dee, it was simply fabulous! Look out for pictures.

I wrote this poem for someone, you know who you are. Not judging or condemning but using this opportunity for a creative outreach. Enjoy!!! And oh Merry Christmas to you all!

    & nbsp;   &n bsp;   &nb sp;   &nbs p;     ;   I placed my bet

His life was at stake and I rolled the dice

 I gambled his chances

His chances to be what you couldn’t, what I wouldn’t

I will pay the price

I raised my sword and I struck him

I struck his helpless soul until it became lifeless

I held him in my arms…he was at peace at last

Sleep tight my king, I bade him farewell

I stood in tears and watched him leave

He turned his head and blew me a kiss

“The time was wrong mama” he yelled with a smile

“Your choice was right mama” he reassured

Then the door closed and he was no more

His life was the stakes, I placed my bet

And I will pay the price

Did I win? Did I loose?

This I’ll never know

Bola Odegbami

Here are a few pictures from Vicky and Kunle's wedding.

In my book the most 'off the chain' wedding to date!!!

Kunle and Vicky..I wish yall a blissful marriage, keep the panashukwu flowing aight?

Sola, Me and Moji

Tosin, Y.T, Moji, Sola, Bukky, nneka and Wande....ready to hit the party scene!

Me and Mo

The Queenb, Bowale, Olumide and Mo

Tosin, Sola and I

What’s it been a month and what 10 days? Hell who’s counting? I have been preoccupied with some vital shit, I forgot to blog. How are all my folks doing? I miss yall soooooo. The pep talk I once got from this blog had a way of brightening my day!

Okay let me bring yall up to speed! The summer session is over, well almost, I have finals this weekend so all yall prayer warriors, talk to God on my behalf. A quick shout out to all my folks who celebrated their birthday, Remi, Kunmbi, Oyin Derin, Denrele, Dewunmi, Sir Niyo and Oh lest I forget the man that gave me life…Happy Birthday Daddy!

A few bad news…I am broke! My car is worth $4grand and I owe $8grand on the piece of shit! My hair is nappy and I can’t figure out what to do with it and I have a paper on Saturday on College Algebra and I don’t know jack! And the baddest of all the news…. I am still single! I am sure you are like so what? Well my ass will be 26 in 18 days!!!

Okay enough bad news, now the good news!

I haven’t been sick in months! I am getting ‘A’s in all my other classes (except College Algebra) I just washed my car, Derin arrives in the morning, my account is positive and the best news of all…. I am HIV NEGETIVE! Yes you read right! The latter brings me to the next topic of discussion, Have you been tested?

Okay so the other day right, some chick asked me to buy fucking life insurance, which pretty much goes against my selfish beliefs (no one should benefit from my death) but this girl just graduated and her first job is with New York Life so I decided to indulge her and do something unselfish in the process. She ended the application process by collecting some of my saliva and she handed me HIV paper work to educate me on the process. Until that moment, I had not realized how ignorant I had been. I had never been tested for HIV because I secretly thought I was immune to the disease, besides, I must have been tested when I had my child and again during my splenectomy and moreover, I have never heard of anyone I knew personal or otherwise that had the virus. After the girl left I started wondering What if? My ifs drove me to go get tested, I found a lab that provided results within 24hours of testing so I dished out $49 and got the test. This was a Friday, I had to wait till the following Monday to get my results. By HIS grace I am Negative, but those 3 days were the longest in my entire life! I was scared shitless! Not of the thought of dying but of the shame that came with the dreaded disease! I have a newfound appreciation for the term “safe sex”. A lot of ignorant people associate the HIV virus with promiscuity but the truth of the matter is if you have ever had unprotected sex you can contract the disease. I employ you all to get tested, it was scary but in relation to the piece of mind afterwards, it was well worth it.

All right, I am bored already from this depressing topic; lets see what else has been cooking in my kitchen…. My dearest cousin Derin is coming to town, she is having her first child in about a month! My girl, Imade just gave birth to a beautiful baby boy and Bisola is due any minute now! These heifers have been busy!!! Funmi and Victoria and Fela in no particular order, are getting married in the next three months. Omolayo is Funmi’s little bride…stay tuned for pictures.